random...

past two day.. i wrote the entry half way then nvr wwrite.. haven finish yet-.- ppl concern abt me.. bt i feel sianz... some how.. ask abt promos. when i dno the status.. n ive been numbing myself with everyting.. music tv dramas many more. n now work,.... bt time n time agn. as long it comes to my mind. immediate sian-ness... most ppl can start cheering.. happy that they can promote. or even feel nth.. cuz they dn have to even think... being so enthu working for nth also-.- dn earn much. jus that have less time to tink ba. no idea... its some how useless also.. cuz im tinking abt it now agn-.- went sch jus now while they everyone is OP-ing n A-ing im doing nth. sigh... i keep tinking of alternative n back up. bt wat can there be? nth much. IM JUS NOT PREPARED for the worst! its not easy can. time n time agn i step into a deep hole without even knowing.. it takes so long to get up....

when i was walking blocks to block yesterday.. i was tinking.. am i who i wana be? or am i made to suit the environment? the people? the place? it might be a yes.. or a no. or even I DONT KNOW.... cuz i dont even noe who i wana be... am i who i wana be? i dno-.-

some time i really wish that time pauses at the peak of life.. n not slow down at the lowest point of life... bt it always fails to do so-.- haha. haiz. got no idea.

anyway. ppl taking A's... jia you! esp meimei xinyi ben and all the kentridgean of my batch taking A;s ba:P haha. will i get to take next year.. its still a wei zhi shu (unknown) can i not noe the ans? can i jus.... can i... can i... i dno la...

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will be okay later... jus for awhile only ba i hope...